Alone Ache

 To silence it I need to get it out.

It's so unfair when you put so much effort in something just to help, selflessly with no other intentions and suddenly it becomes someone else's credit. Because you're not allowed to be the face of that, being an ordinary average individual.



What hurt most is that no one cared, no one noticed. (Except for one). That felt so bad. It still does.

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